Separated and confused

[jendp]

I am trying to stay strong today, feel like I had a major regression of progress on Friday when he moved more stuff out. I get angry at myself that I let him have so much control over my feelings, thought I had strength to withstand this process. I realize that having no contact was more comforting because it gave me a sense of false hope that maybe he would come back. Now I realize that this is less likely and it is harder to keep hope alive. Still wishing for a miracle but reality is hard to ignore.