What are you doing for yourself today?

Get out of the house and take a walk.

Are you in IC? Sorry, I haven't read your whole thread but if not you should look into it.

Read something inspiring.

Watch something goofy on TV.

Have you read Codependent No More? If not, look into it.

For all intents and purposes your W is gone and not coming back. Build a new life for you.

She may come back, she may not but you can't have your happiness in the hands of another person.

You say you are a religious man, is that(your happiness controlled by others) what God wants for you?

I'm sure you've heard the phrase, Let go, Let God.

Do it. You can.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss