The green green grass of home

[Soul.Searching]

Thanks Ruby. I'm not sure how long this will last but It is a big step for me. The conversation (the first one) left me feeling hopeless and helpless, actually both conversations did but I cried a little and picked myself up before H called the second time. It didn't ruin my night either. I'm sad but accepting, I find trusting in faith scary yet liberating. I'm not quite there yet but I am getting there. I'm just really torn as to weather I should continue on this path or not. Honestly with how clear H's head sounded tonight I think he really does not love me anymore or he is seeing OW. Limbo land [censored]. I don't need H's love anymore, I have mine and my kids, my family and friends. I want his love but I don't need it.

You will get there Ruby.