always makes my day to hear from you. yeah.. i am burnin the candle at both ends. its not forever though. my kids are good. my son played this morning. did amazing. i love watchin him move on te ice. hes graceful. my D got her gear this morning too. she starts in a month! her first year. its gonna be a fun winter. i wait all year for hockey season. work will be slowing down a little since i do construction. not much though as we are really busy.
still wondering about the D but it will happen when it does. i have no control over that. i try not to worry about it because that does no good. being a sponsor scares me. i dont have a lot of good things happening in sobriety. i do have alot of good effort in and a positive outlook. Who knows. i might be good at it. i have been thru the fire so to speak.
my guru girl!!! how are you? i got my court date for the D. dec 12.. can't come soon enough. STBX is still nuts. i find it hard to care anymore. i'm not letting her bring me down anymore. i had my kids taken by cps on thursday. my daughter said she takes showers with me and has touched my crotch. she is 5 and not as advanced as kids her age. i got emotional but did not lose my cool. i cooperated fully and got the call today saying that they have dropped the case. none of that has ever happened nor will it ever. i spoke highly of ex's parenting skills, to find out she bashed me the whole time. it doesn't even bother me. i know i am an awesome dad who loves his kids more than anything in the world. i refuse to be bitter. i am getting through this slowly but surely. they say you have to be willing to stand in the rain in order to see the rainbow. well i'm going to see it and who knows...there might be a pot of gold waiting for me! lol
HB: I am SO sorry this happened to you. I can't imagine much worse she could have done to you.
But you have taken the high road. I'm surprised that they have already dropped the charges as these complaints usually stay on file for a long time. There must be more to the story that has satisified them that it is not true. Perhaps the timing and other things she has done.
I don't care for my ex but I would NEVER stop him from seeing his kids. That is extremely cruel.
That's terrible, I'm sorry you had to go through that but you are handling it amazingly.
M: 29, H: 31 D: 9 S: 8 T: 13 Y M: 9 Y ILYBIDKIILWY 12/09/2012 ~~~~ Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles. ~~~ it Emptys today of its strengths
thank you everyone.. i guess the way i look at it is this.. bad stuff happens. yeah maybe more to me than others, but that is no excuse to not learn something and move on. i now know i have to be very very careful as d-day is coming. i figure if i keep doing my best, one day it will count for something. i cant remember exactly who said this to me, accuray maybe, that i can choose the person i want to be. i can be the old bitter lady at the salon or i can be a positive person. kind of a no brainer huh? well, i love life. i love people. i love my kids. i love myself. i am not going to be offended by the ranting and ravings of a person who is unhappy. it was not pleasant having this happen. in fact it was the worst thing i have ever dealt with. i did not lose my cool. yeah i cried. my world ws crushed. i cooperated and did what i had to. i believe it was because of my attitude and willingness to resolve it that helped it work out. i prayed so hard and my prayers were answered. there is a god, and he is in my corner. i actually recieved an apology from the detective. that blew my mind. as some of you know i have a pretty shady background and have never gotten nything like that from the law.. lol. kind of hard to be mad at him though. he was doing his job and had my D's best interests in mind. thank god there are people out there to protect children. i dont ask for pity, i dont ask for things to be given to me. i try my best and work hard. its working for me. after this the D should be a breeze! lmao..
anyway, thank you again to everyone and stay positive. the big lesson i am learning is i am my biggest enemy. if i defeat myself, then i truly lost. i used to think all the positive thinking talk was some hippie mumbo jumbo. i guess i was wrong. i still walk around with a smile on my face and love in my heart. for my kids, for my STBX, for life in general. thats the way i am CHOOSING to live.
yeah.. i shock myself for a living! lol.. i love the work i do. thats why im going to school. to learn the business side of things. that way i can operate a successful company.
SD- school stinks! i had to drop one class, but i am ok with it. not enough hours in a day. i am doing good in my other 3. actually starting to understand accounting and its pretty interesting. who knew? zen hall of fame? yeah right.. lol i just do my best. dont think i dont have my temper tantrums..lol mostly at work. equipment sometimes gets me mad. either way, life isnt too bad these days.
