Staying off the ride 3 - being authentic

[Soul.Searching]

I'm sorry TumblIng, that is one of the things I struggle with too but today I have been thinking,.. I'm going to have to just move in with my life and have faith that if it's meant to be, it will be. I'm tired or worrying about the concerquences of everything I say or do.
Had a long talk to H tonight and there was R talk, just little bits thrown in here and there (I'll post on my thread later.) but basically we talked as soon as I felt he gave me an opening I took it. The first time he changed the subject. Then he ended the convo. He called back about 20 mins later, he actually initiated a little r talk himself. None of it was futcure R talk but past R talk. Basically we both ended up throwing a little r talk in then going back to general conversation.

It ended in him still just wanting to be friends but he also said he will go with me on Monday to sort out an issue with a transfer.
I'm not about to go and try to have a full on R convo with him but as Michelle says, Do what works. Keep your eyes open and see if their is negative side effects.

If you feel your H may respond positively, then I'd say go for it.
So far though, what your doing seems to be leading to baby steps. While your still getting them, maybe try hold off for a bit. If you go two weeks with no baby steps, then I'd say go for it.
Use your judgement and intuition. Good luck and sorry to post about me on your thread. I tried to keep the details small, I just wanted to say that sometime, saying what you want to can be a good thing. Just keep it short and watch your timing. If he pulls back , doesn't respond or changes the subject, let it go.

I too have those same feeling about why should I have to do it all and I came to the conclusion, I don't have to. It's not fair but thats life. Take care of yourself.