Total Eclipse by Dan Band

[2chiquitos]

What? A meetup for the holidays and now everyone's moving to SoCal? I love it! My DB family!! lol :-D

We'll go biking at the beach with NG! Bustingout! we'll spend some time at Disneyland for the kids. LaBug, Camping in Yosemite (of course ;-) We won't let Adinva drive in case there are deer. JKS can be the designated photographer. Arsene, we can work on our patience/anger mgmt. SS, you can help us all generate a list like the one you did for your H ;-)

Journaling
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H called after the gym, "do you need any help getting the kids ready for bed?"

Me:"I understand your thinking of the kids tonite but I'm thinking about what happens after. If you want to come then you can tell me all the contradictions to my assumptions about you."

H: "I was hoping we could save that for Tues" This is just him postponing R conversations - of course I'm assuming.

On someone's thread I read that the less time you give them the more they miss you. I didn't think this was possible but I'm seeing it happen. I didn't mean for it to happen this way but it's interesting to notice.

I can tell he is enjoying his time with us more than before. For ex. He walked the dog! WHOA! Big! He fed the kids dinner! Cereal, but that's the first time he's put something together by himself!

I really love the person he's becoming out all this which makes it even harder to pull away. I wanted to say, "yeah, to heck with it, come over and help us." But something said, "no, I will regret it when he leaves."

Thinking back on previous relationships, I was never one to walk away. Not unless there was nothing there to stay for. I always stayed and waited for the other to change. Now I am doing the changing and I'm also pulling away. This is really big for me.

ALSO, My LL is physical touch and I'm running out of ways to get it without someone of the opposite sex in my life! SOOoooo this morning he came over (unannounced) to drop off money. When he was saying goodbye to the kids I got super brave and said, "I'd really like it if you said bye to me too when you leave." I can't believe I said that! lol! that is sooo not like me.

He didn't respond. Instead looked ashamed. I thought (this is the old me thinking), "he doesn't want to; I'm forcing him; he doesn't love me..." I almost said, "forget it. I'm sorry I asked." But but but I DIDN'T! Another milestone for me!

So he came around the counter and hugged me :-D And did it again before going to the gym :-D :-D

I'd like to blame it on DB n Al Anon! Thank God for both!

So has anyone googled Total Eclipse by Dan Band? They are hilarious!