you are so insightful.. yet again. i can really relate on the whole seeing ex and wondering what i saw. i see her now, and i wonder what i was doing. she is not nice and i am not the least bit attracted to her. she doesn't look as good as i used to think. her attitude is a complete turn off. her drama is something i can not deal with. instead of reacting in a jerky way, i am firm but not rude. i am polite because i choose to live that way. i believe in myself again.
you are on the right path and you will be fine. you are becoming the person only a fool would leave. don't give up. keep doing the work. it's nice when you can do it on your own timeline i think. i used to cling to these boards like a drowning person. i was drowning. because of the help i recieved here, i'm not anymore. i have learned so much about relationships and myself. i now do my learning and improving on my own timeline. i have some control back and it feels good. i control my own thoughts and actions. i dont always make the right choices, but i learn from the mistakes. there is something to learn in everything that happens.
hey... remember the strawberries? i'm eating them and enjoying them. it sounds like you are too! i am so happy for you. although i still wish this sitch never would have happened, i wouldn't change who i have become because of it. on friday i go in for my new tattoo. a huge phoenix wrapping my arm. i have been burnt by the fire, but am rising out of it. stronger and more beautiful than before.
bad behaviors do not have to rule your life if you choose to correct them. that is exactly what i have seen you doing for a long time now. you inspire me! i'm glad i checked in here today. keep it up brit!
Dakota
oh he11, i'm no longer dakota, i'm just me.. i'm Clay!!! lol it feels good to be me again. i havent been for a long time!
