I got a lot of great feedback on that thread and feel that thread probably represents the biggest step forward for me as far as personal growth goes.
So now, it's on to a new thread... and what I'm sure will be yet another chapter in this strange saga.
And I'll just go ahead and start this thread with a little journaling... reflecting the Monday blues I'm growing accustomed to!
As this weekend I was conserving money (trying to move to a new place soon) I spent almost the entire weekend at home... just me and the puppy. During the weekend, although I was alone, I didn't really feel all that lonely... I made sure to keep myself as busy as I could, renting a couple movies, cleaning up around the house, hitting the gym and walking the doggie... Sunday I met up with some friends for a couple drinks while we were watching the games...
But last night, around 3 in the morning or so, I suddenly woke from my slumber and felt almost overwhelmed by a sense of loneliness... Despite my best efforts to GAL and keep busy... this sense of loneliness seems to be creeping in a lot more now...
And then, of course, it gets me thinking about the sitch... about how it's been a month since W and I last spoke... and that conversation was SO huge... but I'm not sure it helped much as far as the sitch goes... (It certainly helped MY attitude and got me to start moving forward a little better)...
So that sense of loneliness is still hanging around... that "I wish W would reach out" voice is louder today than I like... and despite my best efforts, I can't help but think her birthday is but a week away, and even if my heart tells me that I should reach out... my brain (and all of your brains) tells me that's not a good idea.
I'm sure I'll get through this... just like I get through all these little ruts... but I just had to whine a bit today!
