3 years aftet D-Day and i finally registet

[Am I Too Late]

So, i guess what i have noticed recently, is that i have upgraded my focus on other things in life without the constant overwhelming feelings of loss, regret and abandonment.

I still think about things alot, but no longer to the point of dizzying paralysis.

The woman that my W has become is Not someone i want in my life, or in my sons life for that matter, but she is not pursuing her maternal role, which may be for the best.

Several weeks,ago, she had told me that she has not been much of a mother ever since her own mom got sick, hospitalized and passed away, which is nearing the 4 year mark later this month. She is absolutely correct about that, but prior to that event and her alcohol relapse, she was a kind and caring compassionate wife, mother and friend.

I am thinking Against telling her i saw her car at the bar when she was supposed to have been visiting our son, but i would appreciate any feedback. My opinion is, what good would it do? She internally knows what she chooses to do is wrong and if i pointed it out, she would just dig in her heels and find something to blame or excuse the reason for missing being present. In this occasion, she would probably say she didn't want to interfere with my sons Grandparents visit prior to them leaving for their winter vacation. She is nervous and probably embarrassed to be around them.

Heck, she was going to skip showing up at our sons 1st Holy Communion party, except her sister said to her that she was showing up regardless if my W did or not, because S-I-L is our sons Godmother.

Okay, enough about her.....

I am looking forward to getting more business things done this week and some Major clean up at my home, a little bit, or one room at a time.

I really appreciated AlkalineThoughts posting 5 days ago. It helped to make me feel that someone cares about how i am doing. Thank you AT. By the way, i went through all of your linked threads about your own sitch from beginning through current. I Pray for you.

Ed