Thank you so much for the advice and pep talk. These are all things I've said in my head. I started working out about a month ago, and I've lost 8 pounds, so that's a step in the right direction to GAL! Though I have friends now, I've also re-connected with a few single friends I haven't seen in a while, and it feels good.
I don't have to be the one to leave the house, but I'm just thinking I could and would be able to afford it, with the kids. His parents do pay rent (not a lot, but it helps), and she'll give you the shirt off her back if needed. I could see his mom would totally be on my side, and would help me more, if it goes that way.
For lawyers, I have a legal help line I was going to call this am (it's free), just to get some advice, but my sis in law (his brother's wife) is a paralegal. I was thinking of e-mailing her (we're supposed to make plans to get together for breakfast), and I could casually mention in the e-mail that my friends was looking for a divorce lawyer - I think this would be plausuible and she wouldn't suspect that I was asking for me.
When I do finally confront him, I was going to suggest counseling too - even if I don't want to be with him anymore, I think counseling would help our relationship so we could find ways to communicate without hurting the kids.
Last night was so hard...we went to bed at 9:30pm, and I didn't fall asleep until 1:30am. Just trying to remember to take things one day at a time...though I read DR before, that was years ago, so on my way home tonight, I'm picking up a copy at the library.
Thanks again for your advice and for listening - I feel like this is the only outlet I have right now.
