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[LisaLost]

I am posting alot here. I hope that is ok. I woke up at 3am and can't get back to sleep. I need some advice. I have somewhat been pulling away recently. At first I did all the wrong things even though I know it's wrong. I got over it quickly and dropped the drama but I did keep texting him silly things that just popped in my head everyday. I was texting him almost all day and into the evening. Sometimes he would text back and sometimes not. I pulled back to only texting him during the day. In the last two weeks I have dramatically reduced my texting to him. In that time he has started to text me about little things and became a little more friendly. I have tried not to read into anything and I am not sure I want him back. I don't want to get divorced but you guys see what I have just started realizing that he doesn't respect me or our marriage.

Question is should I just drop all conversation and contact all of a sudden or should I send him an email telling him that I am moving forward and the ball is in his court. I don't want to seem desperate I have already shown that side I just want to show an independent person who will be ok no matter what. I also worry that if I pull back now too much he will think I am seeing someone and that will cause issues.

I need some advice from someone on the outside. I have gotten such helpful advice here and it's really helping me to find myself