He's Just Not That Into You

[RegretfulLA]

Well all of this certainly makes it easier to detach, I'll say that. I have no desire to dote on H tonight even though his ankle still hurts and he probably could use some attention. That door is now closed, at least for the next little while. He's been lying on the bed all afternoon and hasn't even bothered to wash the dinner dishes yet.

I do think a DB coach is a good idea. I will look into it over the next couple days. Our financial situation is perking up a little which is good news.

In the end, I do really wonder if we will stay together. I really need a lot more than he has been giving me and I don't even know if he's capable of getting his act together enough to love me or anyone else in a way that involves initiative, if that makes sense. I just can't see him getting that motivated. It's interesting, because I have a talent for helping other people dissolve their inertia, but with him, I seem to inspire inertia. I used to think it was depression and maybe it is, but now he's taking meds and you'd think those would get his a$$ up.