Am I kidding myself.

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Time for a catch up update;

~10/20 Wife had her surgery all went well then she developed infection. I was out of state talking to her on the phone about our daughter and I could tell her asthma was getting too her. I ended our conversation telling her she needed to do a treatment and if she did not improve she should go to the ER. She hates having to go in and i think was concerned about the cost. When i suggested the ER i told her to use our joint account. When I called her back she was just arriving at ER. All went well and she called when she was released to let me know how she was doing better.

~10/22 Came back to town then off again hunting. Talked with W to see how she was doing, just showing i care. She texted picture of incision and the rash she had developed. texted back and forth a bit then i was off to the hills.

~10/28 Came back to town called W to check in, talked a bit, she let me know she was having daughter and G-daughter over for a bite to eat before trick-or-treating (a tradition she has always done with our kids). I truly gave her several opportunities to invite me over as well but no invite, left it alone (do not push...). Had no contact the rest of the week.

Saturday 11/4 called W in the morning talked a while then I asked if she would like to have dinner and see a movie. She said she was thinking of seeing movie w daughter and for me to call her later in the afternoon. When I called back around 3 she said that would be fine baby steps...

Dinner went fine no R talk but she did bring up how she feels happier now then she has in a long time, this just minutes after talking about other health issues that are affecting her moods and messes with her mind... She also had to mention a discussion with a friend about how she is NOT LONELY...I must say i felt myself getting worked up then is said to myself "believe nothing that they say"...and settled down. The rest of the evening went well, movie then took her back to her place. Walked her too her door and followed her lead into the condo. Bit of an awkward moment then i asked for some haloween candy. Chatted just a bit longer then said I should be going. Gave her a couple of embracing hugs and left. I so would have liked more ... No pressure, continue to let her know I will respect her space. Maybe a peck on the cheek next time??

Great evening i know, but why is it today I find my mind wandering as to whether i would entertain the idea of asking another woman out??? Having doubts that she will ever want me or have the same commitment to me that she use too....