Doesn't quite fit in any category covered in here

[Am I Too Late]

Have you looked into Dialectical Behavioral Therapy?

DBT is specifically tailored to BPD, Borderline Personality Disorder.

Since you are new here, i suggest you read several threads from beginning to end and look for the similarities in your situation.

You must have been on moderation and your posts need to get reviewed before the moderators allow them to publish.

Be patient.

I am learning a new way to look at myself from reading all the advice given to others.

Try to not let anxiety get in the way. The best actions can always be deferred to later.

Work on improving yourself.

Ed