Hi All It has been a few days and well i Text my WAW yesterday just to say "Hope you have a good Day" and got nothing back. I have been but this time nothing.
So I broke down I guess you could say and sent this text this morning. Wether it was a good thing or not I just felt it pulling on my heart to do so.
"hows the most beautiful lady in the world doing today? Hope your day is full of all the love and joy God can give you.. xoxx"
Now when i sent it i did not look for a reply but yet i was hoping for something.
It is just hard to keep going on with no contact at all from her. I pray all the time and ask God to guide me and I think the texting is what he was saying i should do. BUt i dont know. I try to love everyone as I would want to be loved. How can a human beeing just ignore someone. This is just beond me.
I was thinking this and tell me if it is something I should or should not do.
I know she works on sat and they can not have the phone with them at all. I was just thinking of calling WAW and just say Hi hope you are ok was hoping to get you to see if you wanted to have lunch or something. I know she will not pick up the phone but it would be a way of me trying to breack the ice on the phone. She keeps saying we will talk but yet nothing ever happens. I try to put myself out there and give her the chance to talk but nothing. She says she wants to be friends but yet nothing. SHe saysi she wants to get a D (without saying that word) but yet she has not made any move to do so.
Jyst so not like the Woman i married. She would always make the move. I think that maybe just maybe she has some guilt in what she has done and may be doing and honestly does not want to realy deal with it. It is like she is just ignoring whatever it is to make her talk or whatever.
Am i crazy Why do I still love this woman so much. I will keep praying as I always do. I will keep reading DR and DB as I am . I will keep trying to GAL and do things for me.
But all this does not stop the pain that the WAW is causing in my life.
