Separation Helped So Far..

[anyhope]

I picked up because why not be on good terms. Lot of the things he told me about us drifting apart was true. As much as it hurt how he left me the fact was that our marriage sucked. If he was man enough to stand by those thoughts or ow for that matter we'd have no issues. I'd move on with my life too. But now a year and a half later when ow turned out to be not all that. He's 41. Not as hot as he thought he was a year ago he figures I'm not so bad after all. As a matter of fact texting me all day today to go to the movies with him and how he'll be the best husband ever.. But I honestly could never ever forgive him.. Or even begin to repair and the truth is I don't need to. I doubt he'd get abusive towards me. Towards other men in my life.. He might but I mean if that happens some jail time would be perfect for him to think things through.. But that's not around the corner as I doubt I'll be hanging out with any men knowing he might get aggressive. But why do I have to still suffer for his bs.. I'm ignoring his texts now. Can't be too long before it sinks in for him.. I mean it sunk in for me too slowly but surely that I was no longer any good so sure he'll be able to process it especially since the whole [censored] is his creation. As per the vacation I can't go.. I was just looking at them now hoping for some awesome deal but I'm starting to think some higher power doesn't want me going. Car broke down on monday and I spent an arm and a leg to get it up and running :-/