all the effort I have put in over the last 2 months has not seemed to make any difference to H.

The effort is for you, to be a better person, better mother, better S.

If you're doing it for reaction from H, or anyone else you will be disappointed often.

You DB for you and sometimes the marriage can be saved. The goal is to save you.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss