Yes, I know! You are all absolutely correct. I was pretty much just venting and am not going to voice any of those fears to H. I plan on just being grateful to him for buying the computer for me.
As for his valentine's day card and small gifts, he didn't get overly excited...but he did say yeah in a nice way when I said I thought he could use the travel mug and mentioned I knew he liked to keep breath mints in the truck and he didn't say that he DIDN'T want them ...which he is very capable of doing.
He definitely has always tried to buy things for me in the past as a way of showing his love. He prefers to buy things that are needed.
Last night: Had girlfriend and her daughter and sleepover friend over and made salad and orange shrimp with fettucini. It was awesome. It's large shrimp or prawns with sauted red peppers, warmed orange sections, snow peas, and orange sauce over fettucini....I added some yellow and green peppers and onions as well...it was FABULOUS...the kids loved it and my girlfriend and I devoured ours and had seconds and thirds...it's a fairly healthy combo, too...so not too much guilt...for all the eating!
Have to be sure and thank H again for the prawns...yummy!
Dan, do you work on the slope? My H does. Just wondering. Anyway, I think he gets lots of earfuls of bad advice from angry ex-husbands up there. His favorite phrases for a long time was I'm just a paycheck to you...or You just want me for my money....my psychiatrist (yes I see a shrink) told me that many of the sloper's he sees and/or their wives say it is all about the money...from the sloper's point of view..that the sloper thinks the wife is out to get their precious cash...it's so dumb...I want my husband's time and attention and love and friendship...and have told him that time and time again...but I guess I need to work on ACTIONS SPEAKING LOUDER THAN WORDS.
I agree H doesn't want to be rushed. I can't really rush him either. H wants to be in control of the whole sitch right now and I have to let him be in control. H is staying with h's folks and comes and goes at h's will...H is probably tired of worrying about whether or not H is going to feel hurt by my behaviour and so is protecting himself... can't say I blame him..... At the same time, H has done some hurtful awful things to me...but I have got to let go of those things and forgive and forget if I want this to work...I need to focus on just moving forward... Church today ...school project to work on with son... driveway is a sheet of ice ...IT RAINED HERE LAST NIGHT! H may or may not be by with gravel for driveway... Will see him Monday morning for sure. Gonna leave him alone til then...son called to ask for a ride to school...but FIL just said "He's downstairs." and wouldn't go get him for son....inlaws don't like us. Don't really care...I used to love them a lot, but right now I don't feel anything...they are good people ...they love their son... I have heard how they talked about other DIL and can't help but feel like they are talking about me...and have been all along...don't know...it's so hard...but that relationship would repair itself in time, if the marriage repaired itself ...we don't have to live together...just near each other and like I said they are good people at heart and have been good to me in many ways, so to sum it all up...they are human and so am I ...we have all made mistakes...
Wow...I am rambling on today...must have needed to call someone or talk to a gal pal...so used the bb today! LOL Gonna run...gotta work on a school project with son...we're making an arthopod...and writing about invertebrates...hmmmm...creepy, wriggly, fun...hope I don't go too buggy...LOL
