My story - help please

[theUF]

Wow Emotional morning. Woke up feeling a bit depressed and lost.

- I see her as a changed woman, for the worse. It makes me doubt if I would even want her in my life. Maybe for the best, but still hurts to see the girl I loved is lost.

- I packed all her stuff, including romantic gifts she gave to me and R stuff. When ready I will give it to her and she can do with it as she pleases.

- I dream about her/us, and still have feelings for her. We've been through so much and gone through stages of life together. From kids to adults.

Me and S have been invited to dinner, so I told her this morning about our plans and if it was ok I would drop him of in the afternoon.

*She said she had laid plans for them.
*I said ok, but it's my weekend, I feel I should be the one making plans with him then?
*She said I should give notice the day before then. I agreed and told her I should've given her notice straight away. Noted.

She wouldn't let it go and started arguing and name calling. I kept my calm and told her how arguing wouldn't lead to anything good. No luck though.

She said we should reconsider or at least discuss child support arragnements because she had talked to a colleauge who was intiteled to a lot more then what my x is.

I told her, wait what? You talked to a colleauge of yours;
A total different person.
In a totally different life situation.
In a totally different break up.
and this person is going to dictate how we handle things? What's that about?

We already agreed on child support, and she only wanted half. I said fine, good for you wanting to make it on your own, but of course if needed I will be there with more. I told her it would be clear how much would really be needed as things started to settle.
BUT, I don't want you to use it against me or constantly bring up how I COULD be forced to pay more. Then there is no point. She has done this twice already and the documents aren't even signed yet.

Again, she started arguing and name calling. How I am an idiot, that only BS comes out of my mouth, and how I don't want to support S or her. I told her this was going nowhere and we will discuss when feelings have calmed down.

She constantly tells me "she is trying to be nice here". Like telling me I'm making it hard though.
What? Really? She is trying to be nice? What have I done to deserve otherwise? I have been nothing but civil about this.


1. Why is she acting this way? She wanted to possibly discuss when I drop of son. Maybe I will ask her what's up? Is she feeling regret? Is she dating someone else? Is she fearing I will make her life difficult? Why these extreme changes from pleasent to attack mode?

2. Maybe I should let our past be past, let her go completely and move on with my life. If only it was that easy huh?