Ok...the hamsters in my cage are running rampant. Why is he offering to buy me a computer? I have to just accept that he is and it is a nice gesture and accept it as such.
Part of me can't help but think Don Pardo is going to announce and hey Colleen here's your lovely parting gift...a brand spanking new Gateway Computer courtesy of your husband... I have to squash that voice down and just listen to the other voice that says it doesn't matter why he is doing it..it is a NICE thing and he is a GREAT guy for doing it and I need to be GRATEFUL...
I am going to pray to God to help me be grateful to others for their kind gestures and for God to help me to not look for motives behind kind actions but to just accept kind actions...
I need a computer. He knows this. He is being kind. His love language (that he speaks to me) has always been giving things to me...so in all true likelihood...he is saying he still loves me...maybe not I love you...but that he loves me.
