snodderly~ Hope you made it through the storm ("Sandy") alright!!! We had no power for about a day, other than that everything was fine.
As for H, he has already backed out of counseling, good thing I wasn't holding my breath on that one.
When I got home Wednesday night I told him I had made the appointment for next Thursday at 7pm. His first cranky pants response, "How much is that going to cost?" (because apparently money that he is generally spending like it grows on trees is now an issue???). Anyway, I told him it wouldn't cost him a thing, I was the one going for counseling and he would be coming with me. He asked where it is and said he'd think about it. I went on my merry way. About 20 minutes later H comes back and tells me he's not going, he would feel "ganged up on". I told him it wouldn't be like that, but I understand if he doesn't want to go. He said it doesn't matter what I say he still feels like that.
So awhile later I went out to watch some tv in the living room where H was reading and he said, "I don't want you to be upset, I'm just not ready for that yet." I told him I understand, and I don't want him to feel pressured, I thanked him for his honesty and for even considering it. I told him to take his time. I also thanked him again for all of his emergency preparedness for the storm. He of course acted like it was nothing.
Anyway, I still kept the appointment for the same time even though it's inconvenient for me, I prefer right after work so I don't have to waste gas running back to a town I was already in.... but hey who knows he could change his mind. (gee ever the optimist).....
RH~ I kinda felt hypocritical.... yelling and screaming, not really the love and compassion Jesus would have showed.... but hey I'm human..... And well, I felt waaaaay better after. After all isn't the point of this life to grow and learn? Cause if not, I don't really know what the point is then..... MLC is Crazytown indeed. Also thank you so much for your encouragement!!
TVS~ YES!! to the hypothetical things I would say to H if he was thinking like a rational person.... but then if that were the case we wouldn't be in this mess in the first place I suppose....
I was just proud of me for not rolling on the floor laughing when he said "no hard feelings", it's like for this or for the entire last year? LOL *shrugs* people can be so disappointing.
Updates~If for some reason you are not sitting down when you are reading this please do so now.... ok... you have been warned..... so on Tuesday when we had no power from the storm..... H called the gym to see if it was open, it was, they had power. He said he was going to go in, I said I would be too. Then I said, oh wait, no power, the garage door, I'll have to stick something in it to lock it. He said, "You can ride in with me if you want." I responded with, "Really? That would be great!" I have not been in a vehicle with my H since October 11, 2011!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So, first time in OVER year, we were in the same car, at the same time!!!!! AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ever since that day we have been watching tv together a couple of nights, he has been saying hello and good night to me, so that's nice..... IDK, I just keep on doing my thing.... and praying...... lots and lots of praying..... also have been deep in thought a lot this week too...
