You're right, ss and I think that's why I wanted to have the talk. I am ready to really move forward but I needed to put a period on this.

Thanks everyone for your posts, care and concern. I may not respond to all of you today as I've got a lot of stuff in my head and am running on 3 hours of sleep.

I think I need to get out in nature today.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss