Not sure if I had a major breakthrough....but yesterday I blew up because W was accusing me of telling stuff to her parents. Which I didn't do. A lot of things were said. Too much to summarize. I wasn't sure she heard anything. But then her mom came down and intervened. I left.
Got a message to go talk to her. She apologized, said she was sorry.
All i know is, i did damage on our relationship. Talked about my mistakes. Told her i know she is worried about me, not changing. Told her, i understand the addiction to the affair is hard to let go. I understand her.
We both agreed that seperating is still good for both of us. I don't know how to explain it but it's been a long time i felt my W being there.
I continue to do DB and Gal but at least now i know i have a chance to save this. If we save it, i am going to be the best husband, dad ever for this family.
I no longer feel like I am lost. Its a new beginning for us, i hope she continues to feel i can change and not visit the other side. If she does visit the other side and doesn't find happiness, i will wait.
I been listening to "I won't give up"
I have to thank everybody for their support and most of all to my inlaws, who was there for me through this ordeal. I hope I can make them proud.
I know she will have Ups and downs. We all do and i am going to be there to pick her back up.
