i think you did what needed to be done so you could know.. and decide what is best for you.
i do think that his words are SCRIPT... and that he is caught in the societal belief that our happiness comes from outside, not within..
i am sorry that he is not at a different place.. i know the disappointment of doing the work and seeing the possibilities for a different and new M and our S not being ready or willing at this moment..
you have grown so much and have so courageously admitted and worked on your own fears and hurts and how they manifest..
this quote spoke to me this morning for you:
"I believe it will have become evident why, for me, adjectives such as happy, contented, blissful, enjoyable, do not seem quite appropriate to any general description of this process I have called the good life, even though the person in this process would experience each one of these at the appropriate times. But adjectives which seem more generally fitting are adjectives such as enriching, exciting, rewarding, challenging, meaningful. This process of the good life is not, I am convinced, a life for the faint-fainthearted. It involves the stretching and growing of becoming more and more of one's potentialities. It involves the courage to be. It means launching oneself fully into the stream of life. Yet the deeply exciting thing about human beings is that when the individual is inwardly free, he chooses as the good life this process of becoming." Carl R. Rogers (On Becoming a Person: A Therapist's View of Psychotherapy)
in my eyes, bug, you have used these 18 months to choose the "good life"..i know that your words and presence has greatly enriched my life.. thank you. and i also believe that the relationships and moments consistent with the good life will continue to come to you as well.. rewarding, meaningful, exciting Rs and moments.
love and peace to you today bug.
Me(f): 51 W: 41 DP:8 M:3 T:10 "W not happy" 7/11 D final: 8/13
