Tori - yes lots happened didn't it? Including a kiss on the lips - that took me completely by surprise - i think it surprised H too, he kind of looked at me sideways when i gave him the quizzical look.
I took H for granted too. You really don't realise what you have until it's gone...i guess
You're so right, it's not time to talk commitment - what's the score here? - because i don't even know what I want for my Self. I'm staying focused on me and leaning back now. H didn't call last night. I didn't expect him to, I think it's a new figure of speech of his.
I didn't really notice either as I was busy working til 1900hrs and then, now that I can download mp3 music, for some reason I found my Self downloading all Stevie Nicks albums that i used to have on cassette. So i spent the rest of the night dancing round the living room, remembering my teenage years, only this time with a glass of red wine in my hand!
Nothing today from either of us and I am totally OK with that.
I'm going to end this thread now w some words to remind me to be true to my Self. When he first played it me, after he'd moved out, I heard my life in the words.
But I, I could never follow No I, I could never follow Well, I never seem to do it like anybody else Maybe someday, someday I'm gonna settle down If you ever want to find me I can still be found Taking the long way Taking the long way around Taking the long way Taking the long way around
Whatever happens between H & I, I know with the continued help I’ve found from all you good souls, I will be CanadaGirl from now on.
ME41 H39 T12 M9 Ilybinilwy 10/2010 H moves out 11/2010 H moves in 09/2011 out 11/2011 Try to fix it alone, give up 07/2012 Tumbling to file 02/01/2013 :-) "Strong on the inside, soft on the outside"
