I agree. Part of what I think happened last night was I think he was testing me to see if I would stay home from AA meeting cause he showed up...but I didn't. I went to the meeting.
When things got good between us before it was because I had gotten a life again..and because I was taking care of myself. I need to do that again. I am doing that and can not let my neediness or desire to make him the center of my universe take over that.
I need to make sure that I come first before anyone and anything else...(other than God) or I am of no use or no appeal to anyone or anything else.
Don't worry about it one way or the other. When my H was vacillating from day to day, I took the position that "this is what he thinks TODAY" and just acted like it was all normal. Keep on taking care of yourself, don't count on him to do anything other than what he said a few days ago. It could all turn around when he sees your changes don't last. --z
Just got back from Noon AA meeting. Sure did feel good to get out of the house. I feel so much better now that I am taking care of me again.
I am a better person for it, too.
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change... the courage to change the things I can.. and the wisdom to know the difference.
Amen.
What a wise and wonderful prayer.
Yep..no sense in trying to make sense out of things that don't make sense or out of people that don't make sense...just gotta go with the flow and not get bent out of shape...
Amen to what you had to say Zero..you are so right.
Good job for you. I see you are from alaska to. good to see you doing good, a friend of mine is recovering AA. He has been trying to get me to go to alanon. need to go soon. Keep up the good work.
Hey! Another Alaskan! Cool. I am from the Kenai Peninsula area....where are you from in general? Alanon might be very helpful...if your partner is an alcoholic.
Well the partying was pretty bad last year, it seems to have leveled off some. If you want you can check out my sitch on Newcomers "Need help in deciding what to do" Page 6 right now. I don't know how to attach the thread sorry, I am very new to this. Maybe you can give me some advice. I am from Wasilla. Nice to meet you.
H will be here soon to take son to a school evening activity. I asked if I could ride along but H did not sound very enthusiastic. Am going to act as if I am not interested when he gets here, unless he asks me to go with them. I think he is doing the two steps forward one step back dance and I don't want to force him to run and hide. No biggie. I can always hit an AA meeting tonight. There's gotta be something to do...even if I just rent a movie and stay home alone. Don't want to look too desperate for his attention. So, guess I better figure out a plan B.
