MLC w/Depression...withdrawing!

[albamarie]

wonder what will eventually happen.
You mean you haven't bought that crystal ball yet? Hey, I should see my psychic lady she was a scary teller of truths.

I do feel stronger, I just have to be careful because I know I'm stronger than H as does he, so I don't want to scare him, not trying to be a bully. He knows I could eat him up and spit him out, so he may be treading right now, he calls it making a decision, I call it have your "calling your bluff"

Journaling:
This afternoon h was so elated because he and S21 get to work at the election live coverage. He was there for the celebration coverage 3yrs ago so now that of course it has some symbolism to him.

What is it with the "signs", the book fell of the shelf so it must have been "given" to me, that particular song played on the radio just as I blah blah. He has no sense of himself that he laches on to every an any sign for direction he can find.

He actually told me that he gets more work (freelance) when he has talked to ea that day, than not. Also, his stool is more solid on those days as aposed to the when he doesn't talk to her, his bumb is glued to the toilet

Really!!! I look at him like he had 3 heads and he felt so justified in it all.

So now that the work (election gig) has come full circle it's a sign that life will be better by his reasoning (didn't really listen). And, if this works out than he can "come home''.

Last week it was something else...and so on...and so on. He reaches so much for a better life without ever excepting what is in front of him.

I told him it's how he talks about ea as if she saves his life. How he clings to her life style that I will not tolerate anymore. If that's what he wants than go after it, I'm ont afraid of that anymore. He said he's not trying to "get with her" he just can't break the friendship.

I'm not going to push it...I'm going to "act as if" as I start my path for myself. He won't even notice until one day I change his life by my actions. Sound familiar?