Journal: I'm never as detached as I'd like to be. H is taking s to a movie. I wasn't invited. I am hurt and I know I shouldn't be or be surprised. I am a quality time person, I've always asked h to do things either by ourselves or with s, and even if he declined, at least he had the offer.
I tried to be chipper about it, my voice doesn't lie I guess. I was upset and my voice was strained. H is at my house tonight and tomorrow, usually I'm there hanging around but Maybe i shouldnt be now. I want to be but nothing has changed except h has a new address (still no furniture) and maybe I'm too available. I haven't left much since feb.. Otherwise I'm always available. H always knows I'm at home w son.
It just seems like this horrible continuation of what led up to this - our ships always passing. But now worse since I sleep by myself.
How do you be an example of love by withdrawing? How do you be a lighthouse yet be unpredictable.
Me& h + S M: 13 t: 14
H moved 2/12. Own apt 05/12, EAs, PAs, gfriends, oh my! I'm done. 12/12
"I get knocked down, but I get up again.. you're never gonna keep me down" Chumbawumba
