Woke up this morning in deep despair. Im feeling really sad today...We are supposed to get sep docs finalized today also.
Tomorrow is H's birthday and I assume correct way to go about it is to NOT wish him happy birthday, correct? He has always been sensitive to his birthday because of his lack of friends. I know that not acknowledging it will give the OW great kudos for doing something for him and I can hear in my future that I didnt even recognize his day. What should I do?
There may even be a chance he sees the kids tomorrow, so he would have to come here to get them...
Somtimes I just dont see how I will endure this road...it just seems so long ahead of me:( Where is that magic crystal ball when you need it?
Last year for Hs Bday (Aug '11-1mos after BD) he came over unexpectedly and I asked him if he wanted to go to lunch. He was really down. I later found out that OW had gone over his place later that night and they made dinner together. I found a letter to OW saying, "it was his best bday ever." I recently asked him about it and he said it wasn't true. H: "Instead, you should be asking me why I never sent her the letter."
Right now he is LOST. Imagine he's on that island in the show LOST. Don't bother trying to save him. (giving him another special bday) just let him be.
M 42 H 39 T10 (-2yrs separation) S8 D5 DD 7/30/11 (EA&PA) Reconciled 6/2013 Separation in works 1/2017
