Concentrate on today and for the short term plans for this upcoming weekend.
I read all 30 pages of this thread and i empathize with you and your thoughts and feelings, but i see much growth and less turmoil from the beginning to the current status of your well being.
I appreciate very much that you dropped in on my thread and felt it was time to attempt to give back to you.
Ed
Me, 55 W, 36 T, 10 yrs S-9 M, 8 yrs 1st D-Day, 9-27-2009, With 1st bf, ea/pa 2nd D-Day, 12-5-2009, With her best friends bf, ea/pa W, AA relapse early 2009-Current W moved out 2-16-2012 New OM 5-2012