Even though I really do not want to see her or talk to her. Is that normal?
I don't know if it's normal, but I know I'm starting to feel that way as well. I'm getting pretty tired of W always acting like everything is fine and still wanting to do EVERYTHING together. Tuesday she came over to take S9 to scouts but hung around afterwards, Wednesday she came over for Halloween, yesterday we went to dinner for D15's bday, tonight we're going to the game to watch D15 in drill, tomorrow a party for D15. And this is MY week of visitation! I'm getting pretty darned tired of seeing W so much.
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I still love her but the damage has been done. My heart has been broken, stabbed, run over and I do not want to allow myself to be hurt again. Is this real detachment? Or have I lost the love?
I think I'm losing the love. I'm not angry at W or anything, but I'm getting to the point where I'm really questioning if she's worth the effort. Like you, I've been taking stock of everything she's done to me and what would stop her from doing it again? Plus I've addressed the faults I had in the M, but W had just as many if not more and they are totally unaddressed. If we didn't have kids I think I would have moved on already. I don't know, maybe I just feel that way this week because I've OD'd on W, maybe if she wasn't around so much I wouldn't feel like this.
