Thank you, Turtlegirl. I read your thread, and there are a lot of emotional similarities! So many of your thoughts have also gone through my head... I'm trying to figure out a way for him to "chase" me, but you're right, I need to be MUCH less available to him! When we first met, I was always doing SOMETHING! Mostly crafts of some kind. And I still have a lot of hobbies, but I tend to do it all at home now. If there was a place to go, I WOULD!
And thank you, AnotherStander! I agree with TJP - you really help. I appreciate hearing that I may not have backslid as far as I thought. But microanalyzing? <sigh> I guess that is exactly what I've been doing... My *brain* knows that some things just ARE. But, my heart grasps for any straw of hope from him.
I am working on being less of a "friend," but I admit that I haven't managed to do it well... And mysterious? HOW do I do that without being rude? I've thought about just leaving the house to spend time with a friend, and not say a word to him. To just LEAVE. But, last Saturday, in an attempt to GAL, I got ready to visit this friend, and when I had shoes on, keys in hand, we looked at each other and I told him where I was going. It just seemed rude not to! I also don't want to set a bad precedent for him to start doing the same, you know?
This is all so very DIFFICULT to figure out what to do and when! I'm not very good at the Last Resort Technique, and pretty mediocre at my 180's. I hope I'm getting better, though. <sigh>
Maybe I'll go do something this evening instead of just sitting at home, watching TV... Anyone have any ideas besides reading Divorce Busting / Remedy at the library? Not mysterious enough?
Me: 36 H: 42 M: 13.5 T: 15 No kids; 3 cats IDLY: Mid-Jul 2012 I Give In: Early Oct 2012
