My question is should I immediately start changing (180) my interactions w him (as I have been very sad, weepy this week and probably not a lot of fun to be around).
I don't want him to think his move made me "happy" or that now he can feel "okay" b/c I'm "okay" now..and go and live this other life w/o me.
As for our boys he is being unusually attentive and wants to have everything around the house "all set" before he goes...and of course he's going to keep everything up and running during his daily visits to the house. (Guessing this is his way of feeling less guilty about his actions.)
This morning I was a mess as I was thinking about this being his last school morning home before moving.
H drove me to car shop then I drove him to work (as last week my car had to go to shop too & OW picked him up to take to work). I didn't want that again. He said he didn't understand why I wanted to do this esp since I was taking him to work where SHE was. In a non-DBing way I said, "I just don't want to lose you." To which he responded, "I'm sorry I make you so upset." I said," That's not the response I wanted to hear." H- "I can't tell you what you want to hear right now." Me- "I know."
I know I went the non-DB route, but my emotions are getting the best of me right now. I figure he's leaving any way he might as well know what I'm thinking (although I'm pretty sure he already does.)
I asked him if we could spend the evening together tonight since it's his last night (I think he thinks I mean to just be home & will probably try to finish his packing when the kids go to bed). That's not what I meant...the problem is I don't really know what I meant. I just want to be around him and want HIM to be around ME. I guess I'm trying to create an unreal situation at a very sensitive time.
M- 18 T-21 S-14,11 & 10 BD 6-18-2012 (OW-EA) H moved out 11-3-2012 10-5-13 Me- I want a divorce. I want to move on w my life. 11-25-13 Jointly filed.
