Another thing that i felt yesterday for the 1st time, or actually didn't feel..... When she was there for the school costume parade, i did not look at her in the same manner as all times in the past, meaning that i was not awestruck by how pretty she was to me and i didn't feel that gaping hole in my heart of loss and abandonment and how much i missed the past history we shared.
I think that's a 1st ever non-feeling for me about her.
I hope that's progress and that it becomes more consistent in the future.
Da mned alcohol!!!!! She wasn't like this when she was in AA and she will not be able to see it.
Well, me and my son will have a nice night going to the circus later today and if we get there 90 minutes early, we can visit the animals and entertainers. Sounds cool.
Ed
Me, 55 W, 36 T, 10 yrs S-9 M, 8 yrs 1st D-Day, 9-27-2009, With 1st bf, ea/pa 2nd D-Day, 12-5-2009, With her best friends bf, ea/pa W, AA relapse early 2009-Current W moved out 2-16-2012 New OM 5-2012