I'm sorry you are having a bad day. I think what may have triggered it is the discussion he had w/you about what he told the pastor and his actions towards you.

He's suffering from confusion and right now, even though he says he wants a divorce, his actions are saying something different. Oh, he definitely thinks that you will be right where he left you and you'll be there for him after the divorce. He's not thinking that w/divorce comes a whole different way of life and that interactions will be different.

I hope you feel better soon. I know it's tough thinking about this stuff and it can bring you down very quickly when they say and do things that make absolutely no sense to us and yet they do not think that they've done anything wrong.

Please take care of yourself.

Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to.
The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.