Thanks all for keeping an eye on me! But when you weren't looking i talked to him last night and he got dropped here at 0830hrs while car was being fxd.
We had a bit of a chat over coffee and toast Then he said - just pretend i'm not here - because i was supposed to be working. So i sat on my laptop in the LR whilst he fiddled with the music system - it was like old times cept i couldnt really get into my work as i knew he would be going at some point. The car should have been finished by 1100hrs so he called at 1130 and they said they hadn't started it blah blah and H got cross w them because he had a meeting to be at 1300hrs. I said - why don't you go to work in my car? i dont need it today and we can go get your car later. He hesitated so i said - really it's ok. you can't stay here all day and i don't need it. He said - thanks and i said - i'm glad to be of help.
I got up to give him the key and see him out and he said "see you later about 1800hrs" and then kissed me on the lips. I gave him a quizzical look and he just carried on out the door.
Now what? See, i think he thinks we are "on" and i don't think we are "on" unless i have said the following and we have talked about what we want:
"I'm not sure how I feel about reconciling anymore. We would both have to agree what a new relationship wld look like, commit to prioritising it and talk about what triggers us for me to consider starting over with you. I'm in a really good place right now and as much as I dont want to divorce, i dont want to return to what we had nor the emotional rollercoaster we've been on over the past 2 yrs"
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ME41 H39 T12 M9 Ilybinilwy 10/2010 H moves out 11/2010 H moves in 09/2011 out 11/2011 Try to fix it alone, give up 07/2012 Tumbling to file 02/01/2013 :-) "Strong on the inside, soft on the outside"
