I'm sorry to hear about yesterday. I bet you aren't feeling great.
May I suggest you just lie really low for a while?
Alaskangal, I went back and read some of your early posts from about September.
It seems your H didn't like your drinking, but as you say you have stopped, what else can he be objecting to?
I venture to say he is in some kind of MLC or has someone else somewhere. *IF* either of these is the case, then you cannot hasten the process of eventually coming closer together again, it has to run its course, if you know what I mean. Getting closer could mean reconiliation, or it could just mean a peace, and agreeing to desagree...
So really, if you just go dark, carry on thinking about yourself - your retraining, your work, your son etc and your own circle of friends, you will reach a point of equilibrium were you are better able to see the larger picture.
I think I am somewhat at that stage myself, but I'm not 100% sure, it feels to me that whichever way things swing for me now, I will make the best of it. But it has been a long and rocky path. I just thank fortune that I came across this DB stuff to allow me to get to this point.
Although ealier I had gone dark and 'moved forward' on my own, it was very much on the basis of protecting myself, harbouring bad feelings for H and possibly an element of waiting for his comeuppance.
Instead, I now feel some understanding and compassion for H, and even see OW, my ex friend, as someone who made a very bad choice, not someone who is evil. I had a lot of respect for this person before she became OW, otherwise she would not have been my friend!
I just pray that you stick around here and regain your sense of selfworth and self esteem, and play it cool.
((((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))))
Livnlearn
"The unexamined life is not worth living" - Socrates
