Soul. -- No I am pretty vocal. Although, thinking about it likely I don't say it in a way that will get anything done. Normally, it just comes across as me bitching. But everyone in the house knows all of this. Again, I think more than the noise and the clutter which sort of gets me going it is just the lack of respect when I even mention these things. Often it is little things though, so it isn't like I blow up out of no where. But it will build. I feel it build. I even say it as I said. I actually go so far as to verbalize- I am getting angry, I am really getting angry. Normally my voice gets louder and I get more forceful. By the time I blow up I am screaming and cussing.
I have problems with boundaries. As in setting them. Not just with H but with my kids and pretty much everyone in my life. I say I will do something then I don't follow through. So that tells me I need to start following through. :-)
I am a people pleaser. Constantly. I will say yes to things even when it creates problems for me. I will do more work even when overwhelmed to help someone else. However, one of my other issues is I am a perfectionist. My H thinks it is control. Maybe it is. Example-Say he has done a chore. Whatever, I will redo it. Or I will go behind him. I also sometimes do too much because I would rather it be done right aka my way. See what I mean? Maybe I am a control freak. I think I am just particular. I dunno.
He also says I always have to be right. He is correct in that. I can be a jerk about it. I don't really mean to be. I guess that comes from always feeling stupid as a kid. So now I am overcompensating and making the people i love feel the same way in the process.
