3 years aftet D-Day and i finally registet

[Am I Too Late]

I have been busy, mostly with my son and his activities.

I did sell 1 of my Harleys last week.

We had fun trick or treating last night.

I still go through lots of periods of time kicking myself in the proverbial azz for thinking i was doing the right things, but really just wound up being a doormat.

I should have joined this forum 3 years ago, but i was still in shell-shock for pizzing off my wife with how much time i previously spent on contractor related forums, plus being a moderator on about 4-5 of them. I was told i cared more about my internet friends more than my wife, which i discovered after d-day. So, the only internet obsession i had was googling stuff about marriage and personality disorders to try to make sense out of the situation.

Had last Friday night without my son, as he had a play date with a friend down the block.

Saturday, same thing in the afternoon with a different friend for him.

Saturday night i took him and his friend to a scout sponsored haunted trail.

Sunday, we went to a movie and saw Hotel Transylvania.

Limited contact with the wife. She showed up for the school costume parade that lasted about 20-30 minutes and then left.

I stayed as i have been a volunteer for every single class party since pre-school through current 4th grade, 3 times per year. Wife took a field trip bus route at her work and missed out on trick or treating. Same old story, she missed 3 or 4 recent karate classes due to taking an extra hour shift. She told me that she is getting less than 30 hours pet week from the routes she chose and that would not qualify her/us for health insurance if the new contract terms for next year were in play now.

In September, she said she would start paying some child support on October 15th. That didn't happen, so i reminded her about that today, and for 1she says she spent too much and can have something next week, but wants to know what i think is fair. In Illinois, it is supposed to be 20% for 1 child aftet taxes.

I also told her that our son asked me 5 days after she had him for her visit 19 days ago, that he asked me if mommy was having S-E-X with the guy that was at her apartment when she brought him there.

Now, a 9 year old shouldn't have to even think about that about his mommy.

I am still looking at running my old business and paid for the liability insurance last week.

I read alot of threads on this site and others about how they got on with their lives afterwards. I don't want to spend that much more time dwelling about a lost cause relationship anymore though.

Going to the circus tomorrow night with scout families. He doesn't remember being there before, because he was too young.

II really and sincerely appreciate you checking in on me. I'm doing the best i can, but i know i need to do more.

Ed