H continues to boggle my mind. Still the post bomb new normal behavior. No ML for a couple of weeks now, interested to see if some this weekend. Last couple days he's brought up counseling for him, and even went to see a local pastor today. But H wasn't too impressed with the guy. I think this might be because H has "his" world vision glasses too firmly strapped to his head. H thinks "nobody can help him, nobody can understand, he's beyond help." H has talked a little more to me - not so much about M but about things that are bothering him. A little bit about how he's "conflicted" regarding our M.
I continue to distance as much as possible when living with someone 24/7. Had another job interview today (please please please)Have maintained cheeriness - easier now that I know it bugs H lol But it still hurts. Still feel chest pressure from time to time, eyes get watery sometimes too.
Talks with H give me less hope for our M even when he doesn't say anything about our M. I think because the talks show how warped his current mindset is. Sigh.
Me 46 H 56 M 22 yrs S22, D20, Twin Ss18
You teach people how to treat you by what you allow. What you stop. And what you reinforce. ~~~~~~~ A lack of boundaries invites a lack of respect.
But it still hurts. Still feel chest pressure from time to time, eyes get watery sometimes too. 
