So you're being hit by one of those unfortunate reality waves are you? Where you know things can be good, can be better, and unfortunately H still has a fair amount of "fog" around him.
You are only as stuck as you allow yourself to be. I, and probably everyone else here, feel your pain. You willing to make things better, but they're not. It could simply be so much better! We all know that, well other than them that is. They're cursed with blindness and we're cursed with being awareness. Our holding onto hope is also partially what hurts us.
As I'm typing this, I can't help be see your signature...."Strong on the inside" tap into that astpect of you Tumbling. You are a strong wonderful woman. You can ride this wave to shore. Hell, if you want, just jump off and swim to shore. There's a picnic blanket waiting for you.
