DM, I really like the tone of these last two posts, it sounds like you're building up your strength and preparing to drop the rope. Good for you! Like you said, this will be a great opportunity for you to explore that person you used to be and get in touch with her again. Let your H storm on his own while you rebuild your foundations.
You've been dealing with your sitch much longer than I have mine, but I will say that after my W moved out I have become more stronger and independent than I would have thought possible a few months back. It's been over 2 decades since I was on my own, but it turns out that guy that enjoyed life even though he was on his own with no W or kids was still in there and I found him and brought him back into the sun again. I'm discovering that I really am going to not only survive but THRIVE whether my W returns or not, and whether I bring another woman into my life or not. I suspect I will, but I don't NEED to. I will do it if and when I WANT to.
Good luck on your journey, what I'm reading in your posts is the same attitude adjustment that I went through and I think you're going to find yourself in a stronger, more content place very soon
