Here we go again...

[someguy1233]

There's definitely still a very odd vibe surrounding our relationship.

Last night W made comment asking if it was weird that she was cuddling me last night. I said, "No- I welcome it."

She still avoids physical contact for the most part.

After S went to bed she brought up Retrovaille. She wanted to see the info. I showed it to her and she still said she'd go. She said it will be hard to be away from son that long but she understands it's important.

Last night she didn't say "I love you" before bed. There was no touching as we fell asleep.

I don't know if it's because she still needs space or what. Last time we had troubles and she wanted to reconcile I remember her saying, "don't you love me? You don't say it and you don't touch me." she thought maybe I was still dealing with the issues so she didn't want to instigate despite the fact that she was the one unsure of M.

She still keeps her phone upside down most of the time.

She did lean in for a hug after S went to bed. She walked up and laid her head onmy shoulder with her arms at her sides. I didn't really respond for a second and she asked me if I was going to hug her, which I did.

I don't know if I should instigate contact at this point. Remembering that just a week ago I told her I didn't want to kiss her, she could be keeping her distance. Or maybe she's keeping her own distance because she has her own feelings to deal with. Maybe I should just keep doing what I'm doing because I don't want to seem like I'm pressuring her. Thoughts?