MLC w/Depression...withdrawing!

[albamarie]

Journaling:
At 3am h called to check up on me, he's never done that, even if he's crazy bored he reserved those calls for ea (it a n side attitude he says).

I was awake...he asked me how I was and said he was worried about me. I said I have no answer to sooth your conscience, he said he should have known the trouble he was bring me, that i was going to be affected by his actions.

Then he caught himself trying to give some kind of justification, he stopped and said this call is not about me, again asking me how I was.

I said I was done...sick of ea...sick of his threats and to go, I would handle it, but I'm not open to the idea (right now) to an open house arrangement.

I laid it out told him what I want and its up to him to figure his way through. I'm starting to turn the tables on him a little being ready to have him leave and finally seeing some benifits I would like to explore thanks to some great input here.

Thank God my 3 S's are over 21 and all out of college. With them still home and working, shopping, cooking and even picking up some of the carpentry left behind by dad, they say let him go. Mostly they say that out of him not wanting to put forth any effort for himself, but also because they see it would be better for me maybe.

My d18, my youngest , is very understanding while she starts college locally and picked up job at the mall. Anything has to be better than what we have all been going through.