That's the thing, my 180's have all been about not pressuring her and working on my anxiety.
When we are in MC I open up. She got mad at me last session because a bunch of stuff came out which she had no idea about. "I feel like I only find out what is going on in your head when we are at MC or when I bring something up".. and she is definitely right...
So I know for sure what she wants out of me and what our R has been missing however she is not sure if it will help at all now. I am going to send an email to the writer of the book explaining my sitch because I am kinda a little lost.
I am very angry at myself this morning because I had two great chances to show her I am trying to bring up the tough subjects and not worry about the boat rocking. And she evenstated " you are still so afraid to rock the boat when we are already sinking." She was in tears telling me how hard it is to be the only one to bring up the tough subjects...
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