Crazyville from your side, your H doesn't sound like a man, who is able to change and yes there are plenty of people like this. Not much to say, if our H has the tools but cannot, will not change.
Sorry to hear you have a stubborn H.
I think what you are doing for your S12 is admirable. If anything, you may not be happy but when day when your S12 grows up to be a fine man, you should be proud.
Maybe the best gift ever your giving your kids.
For my situation my W wants to leave me for a guy she knew 16 years ago. Who we to Jail for armed robbery....there is no logic when they knew each other for 4 months at the age of 16. The guy has no steady job, never been married and can't hold a long term relationship.
I am doing this because I know I can make this marriage great because I still believe in my W and kids.
But I also know, if I ever get married again my next wife will be blessed with the knowledge I gained, every day she will never feel lonely again.
But for now, I must bear the pain that, I did neglect her, not because I was terrible but because my priority was working hard so the kids and her will never worry about money. Like I said, she could of retired at age of 34 and chased her dreams of being a pastry chef.