I am not going to let this bother me anymore tonight. F him. I am going to get dressed up and go out and enjoy my friends and the band and have a good time. I have a cute outfit to wear, am gonna do my hair, and my make up and go cut loose a little...wooohooo me and my seven ups are gonna go do something for me.
Here is what I just emailed him about the whole sitch today... I am getting out of this house. I am going to watch that band with Trish and Hans. I am going to get dressed up, do my hair, and go cut loose on seven ups.
I need to do something for me to take my mind off of all of this crap. That may not seem like a solution to you..but to me it is a good one. I can not sit here and feel like a victim waiting for the next phone call or car...and then when I try to tell you about it and how it makes me feel...have you tell me that I am overreacting and that it is always something with me. I don't make these phone calls. I don't do these things to myself. Have you ever thought of going and talking to Don and telling him to leave us the hell alone?
Or is that too much to ask? That my husband would want to stop all the things that are making me feel so upset. You want to go to the cops...go. What are they going to do anyway? Nothing.
I am not getting rid of the caller id. That is just dumb. The caller id is not the problem...whoever is calling here is the problem.
I love you and if you feel like I am taking this out on you ...I am sorry about that. You are right..you don't ever deal with any of this....so you don't get bothered by it. It's not the same for me, though. I have to deal with this crap all the time...and now, even though I had the phone number changed...it's starting again. How do you think that makes ME feel? I'll tell you...helpless. And I feel pretty alone when you just get angry with ME instead of getting angry at whoever is doing this. I want us to work through this together...but that means you have to try and understand how all of this makes me feel Paul. You said you needed me to believe in you..and I am doing that. What I am upset about is that I need you to be supportive of me and care about what all this does to me...and you don't come across as caring to me. You come across as blaming me for the problem. I love you. Call before seven thirty if you are going to call..otherwise I'll be out. Colleen
