Hi, I wonder if anyone experienced this kind of emotion.
So, today, I went through my "downloaded" files to find something, and, I was scanning though so many files and suddenly, I saw this photo of H from last year. AND, he was holding the OW right in that picture. And he sent that to me last year!! I remember I asked him what he was since he was in a different city, and he sent me that picture!!! I had no clue that was the OW back then of course. And I didn't suspect anything back then, plus I thought she was ugly ( seriously! ) So I didn't even think about anything at all.
Anyway, my point here is, I suddenly feel like I put myself in a lie, in a fake world. This picture hit me hard. Why do I think H still loves me? He wasn't even ashamed of himself and sent that photo back when he began the affair! I feel like he is trash. Am I doing the anger talk? I feel like I just really don't want him now, if he doesn't want to come back. If he doesn't want to leave the OW. Is it normal?
