well, been a while since I last wrote. Just journaling right now I guess as my head swims with do I hold on or let go....
The GAL makes me feel like I am indeed letting go. He wants no contact and I am giving him that. He has talked no more of the legal separation papers and our finances are still connected. We have no contact at all and he has asked me to move on with my life and try and work things out with the person I had an affair with....
He says he is seeing nobody but just trying to get on and move on with his life. I miss him everyday but this tiny part of me wonders if perhaps there is strength in letting go too. Perhaps I have to love him enough to let him go and understand that maybe he would be happier with someone else. After all, if I truly love him, I have to want what is best for him in the end don't I? Even if that isn't me, it doesn't mean I have to stop loving him, I never will just that I have to love him from a distance and hope and wish him happiness. Ho Hum
