Here we go again...

[someguy1233]

Last night W went out after work. I didn’t see her until she came home, shortly after I went to bed.
She crawled up next to me and snuggled close and said, “Thank you for being patient with me.”
She jokingly said, “You didn’t think I would get easier (to deal with), especially after I had a kid?”
I just laid there holding her and she said, “I love you” and kissed my arm. She fell asleep as we held each other.

This morning on the drive to work she said she was feeling much better. She said her Chi feels much more centered. She feels things might just be ok.

A big part of me isn’t sure what to do long term and how to keep these problems from happening. It seems W freaks out about once per year, sometimes more often. Her world seems to fall apart around her and she threatens our relationship. This isn’t healthy and I can’t keep going through this cycle. We need to find some way to stop this. I’m really hoping she follows through with finding a good therapist for herself.

This morning I told her that I’d been thinking about our communication. I referenced an earlier conversation and told her she was right: our communication is horrible. We speak words but don’t listen. We don’t speak clearly, etc. I told her about Retrovaille and asked her to join me. She agreed to go.